Salah siapA?

Kadang pernah tak terfikir. Salah siapa? . Dia jaga hati aku. Dengar cakap aku. Tapi aku? Aku tak dengar pun cakap dia..

Bukan dia yang tak layak untuk aku. Tapi aku yang tak layak untuk dia. Dia layak hamba Allah yang lebih baik kan?

Mungkin betul kata orang. Anak sulung tak sesuai dengan anak bongsu :')

Aku mintak dia jangan layan orang lain. Dia dengar. Jangan keluar. Dia dengar. Jangan makan ni minum ni . Dia dengar . Semua aku mintak dia dengar. Tapi aku? . . . .
Tak adil.

Why im like this?
I dont know.
Mumgkin setan banyak sangat dalam badan :')

Kalau sayang. Kenapa aku macam ni?
Kalau sayang. Kenapa aku jadi macam ni?

My fault

Yes. it is all my fault. We need to be brave enough to admit our fault isnt? pandai buat salah, tapi takut nak mengaku. dunia zaman sekarang.

 

Buat baik tak pernah orang nampak.

Buat jahat sekali semua nampak.

 

Kadang kita kena belajar pendam. Bukan untuk keburukkan, tapi kebaikkan . Lagi2 macam orang macam aku. Very degil u know. 

 

Tak semua bende kita yang betul.

Tak semua bende kita yang menang.

Kadang,

Kita tak sedar apa kita buat lukakan hati orang lain,

Kita tak sedar apa kita buat salah .

Bila dah terlambat,

Bila dah jadi,

Baru menyesal.

Baru sedar.

Buat apa? Dah terlambat dah pun..

But no, since there is time.
We can Learn to improve our self.
We can Learn to be a better one .

We can Learn to change .

Kalau sayang kat seseorang,
Mesti terima dia seadanya.
Bukan berusaha ubahkan dia.

Mungkin aku yang salah.

Tidak.

Memang aku salah.

 Life is round. 

Maybe now your down

But one day your up.

Maybe now your sad.
But one day you'll be happy :)

 Sometimes don't look back to your and cry over it.

Try to learn from it and take some lesson from it.

Human do made mistake.
Once.

Twice.
But if they keep repeating the same mistake ?
It is not mistake anymore.
It is "Purposely".

Stay happy as long as your given the chance to be.

Stay cheerful as long as your given the gift to laugh.

Don't waste your tears for unnecessary things.

Don't waste your time for unnecessary things.

We live only once,
We live only once.

Your life.
Your choice.
Your path.
Follow the right one.
Be the right one.

Follow the successful one.
Be the successful one.

Don't give anyone a tiny chances to stop you being what you want.

Keep Quite or Speak Out ?

Ehem. Okey.. Im just an ordinary girl which trap between her own feelings. Seriuosly, idk how to contol myself. my anger my pain. tak tahu apa nak buat untuk hilangkan perangai buruk tu. i have a boy. kesian dia. asyik kena marah . with me of course. sighh. jujur tak pernah pun niat nak marah dia tapi perasaan cemburu, dengki, rase terabai selalu wujud dalam diri. example like when i called him but he didnt jawab call tu . lepas tu terus on9 whatsapp or whatever else. its annoys me. bukan nak mcj or call balik.. haha like a kid kan? but no im going to be 18 . tenaage okey

Hes an orphan. his late mother passed away and live with his siblings. ilove him. i do. i wish to see him happy always. but with me.. that i usually give him is pain. even dia punca aku marah tapi last2 dia yang akan menangis . bersalah sangat. i tried to remove my bad attitude. but i failed. always failed. we made many promises n deal. eg : will not keep any secret even it will going to hurt other feelings. dulu, dia suke pendam semua masalah dia. but now alhamdulillah dia akan cerita even kadang2 kene pakse sikit. now, im feeling like that. like wanna keep all my pain n prob away from him. dont want him to know. but he always keeping on push me to tell like i usually do to him when he tried to keep something secret from me. we'r almost 2 years. n its just begining. kadang rase kesian kat dia. rase macam tak layak untuk dia. hes a nice boy with a great attitude while me? hahahaha i can say he's more rajin than me. i wish i can be like him. layak ke aku untuk dia?

Bila aku putuskan nak tinggalkan dia. He will cry. n i cant hear his tears. Jujur. aku sendiri tak sampai hati tinggalkan dia . haha. im too sensitif . soft heart . extra jealous. hmm what should i do? stay quite  or just tell him the truth?

Hate to admit it. I hate my self. I want to change to be a better girl.

If we just hope and pray we cant get what we want.

We need to have some courage to get it !